They call it maturity, I call it I'm developing a character

One month of college alredy done. Wow I can't believe how time has passed already. Well I'm finally adjusted to the whole college life thing. I definetly had to organize what nights I'll stay out late and which ones are meant for studying and SLEEP( *note to high schoolers reading this, if you think you don't think you get enough sleep now wait until you get to college.) Another love that I have aquired is Bubble Tea. This ish is fabulous! I am a proud bubble tea addict. AS for college life I've gotten used to the dinning hall (fyi my uni has some awesome food, smoothie bar, organic salads, vegetarian options. take out, and the best of all....HALAL FOOD!), gotten used to the drunk people that roam around looking really lost on Friday nights, and the school work load. All of my classes have enourmous amounts of reading that I've had to get used to but overall I'll make it. Right? Okay now to the juicier and more random stuff in my life. So yesterday I ordered "The Almond" by Nedjma. Ok I had no idea that it was this erotic/confessional/autobiography of a muslim woman, someone had told me to read it. SO has anyone else read this book? Seriously oh and don't give me those *gasp looks "OMG you ordered erotica!!!". No, correction I ordered a book that is somewhat like my blog, a confessional however it isn't PG-13 and her focus is her sexual awakening while mine is about my life so far. So I should be getting this book by Tuesday and I will keep you all posted. Ah and my parents are getting what I call the "engagement itch". Ok maybe way more my mom than my dad. My dad would love me to lock myself away to some muslim convenant and never get mearried. That way his little girl will never grow up. My mom on the other hand would like to see her grandkids and have a reason to fill the photo frames we've had for ages. And I...........whoa don't want to be married, enagaged or anything of the sense right now. Um hello I'm just getting used to taking care of my own behind and it tires me out. I don't think I am stable enough to have to care for someone elses. And plus I'm way too much of a independent mind. Seriously I feel sorry who becomes "smitten" with me already because I have alot of faults and have no goals in the future to change that.



1: I don't cook

No seriously I don't go into a kitchen and VOILA!!!! wonderful rich and hearty cooked meal. No I go into the kitchen and the fire department comes over for their annual visit. Potential husband would have to be willing to cook. My choices have been narrowed to about a quarter of the elgible bachelors out there( they're chefs)



2: I'm not a gushy awww romantic type

Really. I'm not.I laughed through The Notebook. I cussed out Rose for being wimpy and weak and letting Jack die instead ( he was hot) in Titanic. My guy would have to dig deep down and find something that will spring a cord or jilt of "awww" into my non-romantic nerves because all the flowers and chocolate stuff does not work on me. I've narrowed my choices down to 30 men out of that quarter.( because nowadays all guys have to do is say a line from Twilight and voila they get the girl)



3:Umm i'm not having more than three kids, oh and they won't be "honey-moon" night kids either

Yh I love how guys want to have big families and all but um no. No,no,no,no,no my body my choice. The day that men know how much pain goes on down there from your first period until menopause then they can have all the kids they want. Plus once you have a kid in the realtionship you dont have that time anyomre to know each other. No honeymoon kids. Lets await 2 years or so. My choices have narrowed down to 3( Beacuase the rest of theses guys had mothers who wanted grandchildren by the time the wedding reception came around.)



4: I want to work

Why am I in college? Why would I have stressed myself out over SATS, scholarships, FAFSA, dorm life, books, tuition, ....and dthe list goes on. Only to sit up in the house all day and drink shai (tea) and look after my kids. No.absoluty not. Daycares need business and I'm willing to give it to them. We will both work. My husband and I. My college education will not only be good for a pretty diploma that will reside next to his Masters and PHD. Nope, not over my dead body.

My choices have narrowed down to one guy.(Because men have this whole ego thing where they wan to be the breadwinners in the family, no prob. keep doing that and what I earn will got to the SUPER FANTABULOUS LOVE IT LOVE IT SHOE FUND,...I'm joking i wouldn't do that lol :))



WHAT!!!THere is one guy left!SO there is hope for me! Oh inshallah I do hope there is that one guy out there who can get over my issues and loves me :) well now off to some way over-do homework :


FYI I'm loving these two songs....

Like a G6- of Far East Movement
Only Girl in the World- Rihanna :)

xoxoxo

College Life does things to you.....

Wow its been awhile since my last post.College is......dsjkfsd;kfhs;dfh.lol exactly I cannot pinpoint a specific word to describe this place.I truly believe I'm coming into this place as a girl and I will definitely leave as a woman. So with a few minutes to spare until my next class I guess I'll look back on the past week and a half. So I moved in on the weekend.I was so apprehensive and nervous about meeting my roommate because after checking her Facebook profile I was convinced we would have absolutely nothing in common(blah).And I was right.My Liberal Artsy save the world do your dam thing mind had nothing in common with my oxford studier Ukrainian Ballerina Performing Arts Yoga loving Hummus addict roommate.(I do like hummus though).But.....IT WAS OK!Omg we have learned so much from each other its crazy.I'm so glad I get to introduce her to my culture and Islam and that I'm learning so much about Ukraine and the things she's interested in.So roommate situation is all good :).The dorm rooms....well I'm glad I left half of my hijab collection back home because I barely could fit them in the five drawers in my bureau.Even though its a little cramped I will survive.I'm in an all womens dorm( yh because I was totally jumping out of my seat to be in a co-ed one) however we still have maintenance men and other girls who bring their "boyfriends" or "boys" who happen to be "friends" by to see their dorm and residential hall( which I personally think is lame because they all look the same but hey what do I know).So every morning I play shower Olympics and try to navigate my way past the maintenance men and other floating guys without losing my towel or shampoo.ahh what fun.The biggest blessing is that I've found 5 other muslimah's on my floor(AWESOMENESS!!!!) and we look ridiculously cute in our little prayer outfits for taraweh and when we wake up sleepy eyed for suhur.Al humdiilah thats been a blessing. So have I done anything crazy yet??I don't think so. Well if shisha in the gazebo in front of our residence hall doesn't count then yes I have been a good college girl. Well professor is here, hope I can update more later ................xoxox

***The Eid List***

Ok Its almost day 10 of Ramadan and I want to dream a little bit like I'm that little girl waking up on Eid morning to warm croissants in the stove and my mom waking me up.The excitement growing as I run to a pile of goodies(I remember my first goodie basket from Bath and Body,I thought I had died and gone to sugary sparkly lotion heaven).Oh how so many years have passed.Now I wake up to more people in the house ready to steal those awesome eid croissants and having to wake up earlier because *gasp! my only goody is an awesome Eid outfit :) well here's to Eid and many more to come inshallah:







1:Audi




Ok I would look very cute in that. I might even get off for speeding if I was in it too. The parents have one so why not me?Lets continue the family legacy eh?(my family laughed when they heard this line and directed to public transportation.*sigh)


2.Purple Manolo Blahnik's

Everyone drool with me please.enough said

3.India


I've always wanted to go.either that or Dubai.

















4. Bvlgari
I want this to be engagement ring.No diamonds,no gold,just a plain platinum Bvalgari ring...is that too much to ask(yes hijabinista it is...)

5. You know all of theses things are awesome and would light up my eyes if they were in a small glittering pile on Eid morning however.....

1.I want to enjoy my freshman year to the fullest.

2.I want to learn Ukrainian from my new roommate(isn't that AWESOME!!!!)

3.I want to cook a dish without burning my residence hall down(um if you see that on the news my whole identity is totally exposed)

4. I want to stay true to myself

AND

5.I want to stay true to my dean and treat others as I would want to be treated because all the glittery things are nice but the things that glitter the most in life are those who love you the most <3>

P.S everyone has been putting me to shame with their gawjus blogs so I'm experimenting and finding one that works for me.wish me luck!

Reality's Reality and Fake is fake! :O

First week of Ramadan is over!Whoa time has definetly flown past pretty fast. Only a few more teensy weensy days untill COLLEGE hijabinista emerges:) SO...Sunday I watched Big Brother (obvi. i had nothing better to watch or this fast is really going to my head.).All I can say is these two shows are horrible excuses of entertainment. For example there's the whole Rachel and Brendon relationship( thank god she was voted out because I think my eyes would've rolled out of my head from listening to her ridiculous remarks.) Ok so Rachel and Brendon have fallen deeply,madly,passionatly,possesively,in love in a matter of.....30 days.30 DAYS! By day 30 these two individuals are totally ready to dedicate themselves to each other and claim to be each anothers soulmates.They validate this union by shoving each others toungue down their throats or throwing immature hissy fits with each other followed by yet another nauseating makeout session where cameras are VOILA! present. Give me a break. The only reason they've been dilillusionized with love is because well there's no one else around.I give them two hours in the real world.The point I'm making is BS you see on reality tv isn't reality.Its..well..BS. On that note whats up with all the sillicone implants?It seems like everywhere I turn around people *cough women are getting body parts enlarged to massive sizes. Has anyone noticed the increase in butt implants? I hate it when I see some women espcially when I go to Victoria's secrect(nothing against the store,I luv it there) and you can see these women who are obviously way too small for their own boobs!!! lolololololol no but seriously you'll find an A cupper who thought a nice 34B wasn't enough so she's implanted all this silicone to make DD's that are obviously weighing her down. I'm not against plastic surgery,only if you need it like breast cancer survivors, if you've had an accident, birth defect, etc. But just purposly going out and blowing up your body beyind porportion and punishing the rest of us in the world with having to see that almost everyday..DONT DO IT!I'M ALREADY SUFFERING FROM WATCHING CRAPPY REALITY SHOWS!!! .............................;)

Starving and Somber

So it's Ramadan!!! Whopp I really love this holiday,despite the whole empty pit in my stomach and everything in sight looking relish I'm just glad to be able to appreciate what I do have.on a more somber note I just found out a schoolmate of mine died in a trtic car crash. It's funny how I wasn't even friends with the person however it pulled a string of emotion when I heard the news.it's just shocking how little life this girl lived and it's like she was living her last days of her life.i just wish her family and friends peace and the same for her soul. Now on a brighter note.....two more weeks!!!!and it will all be comin together.this is a short post because I feel a hungry coma coming on and I'm ready to fall into it! :) RAMADAN KAREEM YA GAMAH!!!!!

Sex and the Sahara

SSo recently I saw Sex and the City 2.I've never really been a fan because it's not really my generation but I said oh well why not.well I hated it.no seriously.why would I spend two hours of my life watching pre-menopausal women chase after sex like a bunch of wild dogs.I had to silently vomit in my mouth watching what's her name,Samantha go at it like a sex starved teenager except she didn't look good,(THEY ARE SO FREAKING OLD AND WRINKLY!!!!) and neither did any if the guys.and the way they represented the middle east and the women was ridiculous.They portrayed them as women who were shunned away from all the sex and fun the girls were used to.bottom line is I rather be throwing flirty glances from my khol lined eyes at the local emirates than to walk around hormonal and ready to screw anything that has something between his legs.it's so sad how sex has been reverted to such a barbaric act these days.I know your probably thinking what does this virgin know about sex?she's never had it! True but I'm smart enough to know it's definetly not what's shown on these screens.where is the passion?where are those oh so secrect glances where you're the only two people in the room who know exactly what and who is going to be happening later.if sex is all about literally jumping on the first thing you see then I'm more than happy I'm waiting untill I get married. Oh and the whole part about the burqa, even though I can't see a future where I would wear one I have to applaud the women that do and totally rock it.I saw this niqabi a few days ago and after envying what looked like a Berkin I couldn't help but beam in pride as she walked through the international terminals of the airport with her robes billowing behind her.As she sent me a warm smile and a wiggle of her gold and diamond encrusted fingers (I think chophard) I was like you go girl your sexy and fierce in your own way, you have about four guys ahead of you carrying all of your gucci carry ons and hey since no one can see what you have underneath you could just be in all La Senza! Now that is Sex and the City ;)

Roommie..........

Yay!Its all winding down.Only a few more weeks and yours truly is a free and legal COLLEGE STUDENT!!*sigh. I absolutely cannot wait. Tomorrow is the big day.I find out who my lucky roommate will be. I'm not a picky person because generally I get along with everyone but there are just some things I can't deal with. Seriously if this is you lets just hope WE aren't roommates.....

1. Waking up early in the morning pulling the shades back and saying"ISN'T IT JUST A BEAUTIFUL MORNING!!!HELLO WORLD!!!"

I'm in the background still in bed telling you to shut the #$%^$%#@ up and flashing you a very flashy finger. haha no I'm not an extremely grouchy person but honestly I'm not a morning person. I'm not even a sunny weather person either. When I see thunderstorms I smile and think WHAT AN AWESOME DAY ITS GOING TO BE!!!(the day I was born there was a really bad thunderstorm so go figure!).Anyways my point is oh potential roomie please don't scream from the mountain tops in the morning like we're in a parody of the Sound of Music.Just say good morning or Salam Alaikum,open the shades just a shimdged and all will be well.Thank You.

2. The roommate who has everything in that sickly "Its a girl" pink.

Don't get me wrong.I love Pink.Especially when its in the form of a bombshell bra and knicker set then yes I definitely love Pink (I <3>3. The roommate who gives me the "isn't that haram" look.
I can't stand those witches because half of the time they're out doing something sneaky and shitty. Look don't aggravate me because I eat with my left hand(I'm a lefty,get over it, Allah did) or I'm a second late making Asr prayer.DO NOT JUDGE ME! Because I know you're that hijabi who's the immans daughter yet when he finds out what's on your face book profile he's sending you straight to Yemen.( for all of you in my area that's basically boot camp for he ones that get caught slipping...hehehe)

4.The roommate that never goes out AND is all about her studies
My motto is there is a time for work and a time for play.Don't kill yourself doing too much of one.

5.Nosy roommate
I'd never have a blog again because me and her would go at it and of course I WOULD WIN!!!!


6.Nasty Roommate
OMG I had the pleasure while I was at orientation to walk into a shower stall and find a used sanitary napkin STRAIGHT DEAD ON THE SHOWER FLOOR!!!!!!
For the love of god or whatever you worship don't do that!!ew ew nasty nasty cooties cooties for sure! I mean I can deal with a "organized messy" roommate because I'm the same way.But nasty with food a rodents crawling around.No,no,NO we will definitely have problems if that is YOU!

7.The NUDE roommate
Ok have you always noticed whenever there is a group of girls there is ALWAYS one who believes that she is sooo fine that even us females have to be blessed with watching her walk around practically STARK NAKED!I mean I'm down for wearing shorts and a tank while I'm in my dorm room area and stuff but I'm not stepping out the shower and prancing around the halls in my birthday suit.No Thanks I have my own boobs to look at if it's that serious. And the only thing I want to see closed with nothing on is a guy!



Well I'm sure that tomorrows roommate assignment will be all good insha.until then :)!!!!!!!!!!!!