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Monday, April 25, 2011

Sophmore Se7en

So its finals time. And here I am stressing again. In fact its really disturbing to me. I'm really curious to know where laid back me disappeared off to and who replaced this moody feeling out of place emotional twenty year old. *sigh

So now I sit here and reflect back on my freshman year and here's the run down of what went down:

I went to my dream college
I met the most amazing five girls a girl could ever meet and had the time of my life
but then reality caught up with me.....
I realized due to certain circumstances I couldn't stay at my dream college
I or should I say my birth family found me
I got my belly pierced
Denied the fact I had to leave until the very last day

and transfered back up here

Where I entered a friendship filled with paradoxes
One minute I couldn't be happier where there are other moments I am absolutely disgusted that I'm friends with this person
Moved into the crappiest dorm of my life
Crushed on this one guy for the entire semester and have yet to muster up a smile

( I know I'm perfectly aware there are plenty of people out there who are like "OMG ur a muslima, no eyes down gaze away....etc. etc. But you know what excuse me for actually giving into my feelings once or twice and actually trying to do something about it. I only wanted a decent conversation with this guy, a wave would've left me happy.)

Took some of the crappiest courses which I'm praying to Allah on a daily basis to perform a miracle to get me out alive.
The reality of actually finding my birth family officially hit me and I realized I wasn't happy

So to conclude...

My freshman year taught me a lot. Its shown me what I want in life, how to get itt, and has seriously set me up with different goals for next year inshallah soooo..... here they are:

1. Better living accommodations with a better roommate! :D very excited
2. Courses that I'ma actually interested in
3. I will have one decent conversation with the "guy"
4. No more paradox friendships. I'm cutting some people out of my life
5. Schedule, schedule, schedule
6. Find my birth father
7. GO back to my dream college

There you go those are my Sophomore Se7en.

Wish me luck

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Not forgotten

Oh dear sweet blog, the vessel of my thoughts don't worry I haven't forgotten you. Not yet. This semester thankfully is almost over. Alot of cramming, red bull, and stressing will be going on but hey this is me we're talking about. I never expect anything better. Just off the phone with my sister. The sister that I just found out about 5 months ago. The sister that falls in line with the seven other siblings that I've learned about. Along with a mother I've never knew outside the womb. And millions of questions about a father who remains faceless. Sometimes I take a step outside my life and look for subtitles or a director yelling"CUT!" because honestly my life seems life something pulled out of a lifetime movie. Well I just wanted to let you guys know I'm still here, still navigating through this wonderful world. As my term comes to an end I hope this gives me more time to write. Writing is the purging of a soul. Purging sometimes can be good for you. Think of it as....a good colon cleansing.



Thursday, February 3, 2011

Egypt, revolutionaries of the future

This will be a short post, I want to dedicate this amount of time to the brave and defiant citizens of Egypt.....

I have never been more amazed, I truly wish that Mubarak stands down. After years living in CAiro for several years I think it is only just that its citizens demand and receive the rights that are lawfully theirs. How can one be a president when its own fellow men and women are suffering on a day to day basis from hunger,malnutrition, lack or employment and education. How could a president eat diner at night clearly in knowledge that his own people were starving nationwide. How could a president go to bed at night when there are so many unresolved issues that haven't been resolved. A leader is one who is from the people and represents the people. A leader is one who takes other peoples problems and burdens before his own. A leader is one who makes the ultimate sacrifice of his own pleasures and time in order to dedicate it full to his people. A leader is what is missing in todays society. Even leaders who I personally would believe would exceptionally rule because they are Muslim and there are several lessons about leadership that can be learned from our Prophet Muhammad( peace and blessings be upon him). However this example of exceptionally leadership is given a deaf ear and blind eye. There are no real leaders left in the world. The rich are corrupt and pay their way around laws and jurisdictions. The poor are burdened with he consequences of their actions. Yes, Allah (swt) created all people different and everyone is not given the same amount of wealth. However those who have the wealth have an extra responsibility to make sure the wealth is always used for something that is seen as golden in Allahs eyes. THis wasn't taking place in Egypt.  How can a government that receives almost 1.3 billon dollars from the American government have its citizens living in mud huts next to luxury apartments. THis madness has to stop. And thankfully it has. I really wish I could have been out there protesting with some of the most considerate and compassionate people I've ever met, the Egyptians. Inshallah I hope that Mubarak steps down soon and the Egyptian people can begin rebuilding their country to the way they see fit and deserve.

Here are a couple of pictures of the protesting from my old neighborhood in Cairo
 GO EGYPT!!!!!

Sunday, January 16, 2011

2011---> Sushi,Snow, and Shopping

Salam Alaikum and hey everyone its been a while since my last post, it was "so 2010" lol. But, here I am new year, new university, and in a few months new age as well (THE BIG 20!! o_O!!)

So how did my new year start off? Well I moved into my new dorm at at my new university and hated it from first sight. It resembled something Chucky was raised in. So after stuffing my clothes in the inadequate space given and sinking into misery that I would have to pull out all my hijabs every morning before I get dressed, which would make me late because I need time to fix my coffee, which would leave me grouchy in class,which would lead to a decline in friends becasue I would have this expression on my face which is similar to misery....bottom line, disorganization of hijabs would lead to a decline in social life. Now do you see my dilema. So I sat on my bed watching reruns of The Game and sinking into a sea of misery....for about 15 minutes and then a friend of mine called and that was the ned of my "not so social" life in this new university. I spent what was supposed to be a good lunch a hookah time evolved into three days of being snowed in with a bunch of crazy girls and an incredible time. So here's to Spring Semester 2011 and many more adventures to come :)

P.S I miss my girls back in Katzenbach but *wink you'll be seeing me sooner than you think!

Monday, December 20, 2010

Its finals time....

SO this is my brain right now six hours away from my Politcla Theory Final Paper Dealine...


In translation: Thoroughly confused

On a better note, I met my sister Saturday!!!!!

The meeting was monumental. It was everything I dreamed of in the midst of my favorite city in the world (NYC!!) and the backdrop consisted of H&M and Macy's and the whole hustle and bustle of Christmas shoppers ad right there walking up to me is my sister :)

Awesome, awesome, awesomenessss!( i know not a word)
 well back to this paper ..................

Monday, December 13, 2010

New Year, New Leaves

The tenth day of this sacred month, Muharram is known as Aashoorah. It is one of the most important and blessed days of Allah in the Islaamic calendar. Some ulamaa (scholars) are of the opinion that before the fasts of Ramadhaan were made compulsory, the fast of the day of Aashoorah was compulsory upon the ummah. This is stated in a hadeeth reported by Aaishah radhiyallahu anha that the Holy Prophet sallallahu alayhi wasallam ordered the observance of the fast of Aashoorah. However, when the fast of Ramadhaan became compulsory, then whosoever wished, kept this fast and whosoever desired did not observe this fast. Bukhari Vol.1 Page 268

Inshallah tomorrow or oops I mean today in a few hours i will be fasting the last few days of Muharam. So I've decided to put my facebook on hold, ipod on mute, and Media Takeout away from my daily browsing history. And instead of wasting lengths of time watching old films and tv shows that remind me of the past when days were simpler, I'm going to focus on these finals so that my future is simpler as well. Wish me luck inshallah and Happy Fasting to everyone as well.

Its a Shame

Watch the First two videos below. What in the world is this world coming to. Seriously.

Thats a shame.